My friends’ first impressions of me usually are: “snob, masungit, goodie goodie, demure, etc”. But I tell you, looks can be pretty deceiving. Demure? Goodie goodie? Hell no. I’m a fighter. I’ve always been. “A woman who thirsts for adrenaline”; may it be in sports or in life. I love a challenge. When I want something I would most probably get it. When it comes to problems, I’m all for it. My friends think I’m weird just because I don’t react or panic much when bad things happen to me. I didn’t panic when I found out I wasn’t enrolled in one of my subjects after taking it or when I lost my phone or when I’ve only been starting on my 10 page paper the day of submission. It’s not because I’m not human. It’s just that I prefer redirecting my time and efforts in dealing with the problem. I respond really well with emergencies: what would you do when you saw your friend’s house burning? Do you fight or flee?

Well, I fought the fire and luckily, we were able to extinguish it just in time. I love that adrenaline. Though sometimes, there are limits to wishing for something bad to happen just to test yourself. Well, that thing called karma came back for me, just now. I’m facing the most difficult problem I’ve ever had to face. I’ve been so afraid of facing it. I keep on dismissing it hoping that it would go away. But it can’t. None of my friends know this because I don’t want them to make me realize how big this problem is. So I’m giving you the chance to be the first ones to know… my secret. I’ve always thought that I had all the time in the world to fix my relationship with a certain person. But now, I found out that this time I have is slowly slipping away. This love one of mine… is dying… But I thank this blog for teaching me how to face this fear… I can’t share happiness if I keep on running from mine… I’ve also learned to always look on the bright side of everything (how cheesy it may sound, but it has helped me deal with my problem): to think about the positive things. So now, im just thinking that this person is not leaving me… he just went ahead… to a greater place. I’ve slowly been facing my fear and spending more time with this person. So, thank you my fellow bloggers and readers for making me a better person. Share happiness!